i think...

when someone makes you feel bad, sad and cry, what do u think?
i know we human being have better brain than any other animals
and we can do like that (like making someone sad...) consciously.

but we also have a good imagination.
and we know how we make someone feel bad and can feel how someone who re hurt feel.

so, why we sometimes hurt someone?
if you re hurt, what u feel? u can imagine.

last night, i met my friends who re my ex-coworkers of my ex-part time job.
we drank together after long separation.

And some friends put a friend on.
At first she also laughed when they were joking, but she seemed gradually angry.

and after it
she told me how she felt.

i really understood how she felt too.

and i 've been thinking about it and sometimes upset....and angry!!

ah....

i'm home!!

what's up!
i went back home from Iriomote-island last night.
i took a last train....!! aah...i was tired so much!

anyway.
I really enjoyed there.
i do like there! i gonna go there again!!!

u know what...
i could see fireflies, shooting stars, the milky way,
beautiful sea and tropical fishes!!
actually, i can't see them around my place so i felt refreshed there.
of course, i've not watched PC at all.

i also went water-skiing. i've never tried it...i found new hobby!:)
i'm lucky, amn't i!!?lol


anyway...there are just 2days holiday left...ahhhh....!!
i have to work again soon...

Finally!!!!

finally i could watch SEX AND THE CITY movie with my girls.
it was soooo fabulous against all my expectatioon!lol
i really wanna go to see it again! seriously!
u should see it with your specials.
and should be dressed up too!(dont wear sneakers.lol)

going to Iriomote!!

Loooooong time no writting here...

finally...i gonna take summer holyday next month!!
so...im going to Iriomote-island.
it's isolated island of Okinawa.
one of my friends lives there and wanna see her.
and...wanna see beautiful see and swim there....!
and wanna get tanned!:)
woow...im excited just thinking about it.

got yukata!

today i went to UNIQLO near my place...:)
and i got a yukata on sale...
we can get cheap stuff there anytime so i like this shop...!















i really wanna wear it and go to fireworks festival soon:)

long time no see

i met my friends who came form Sweden lastnight.
i saw them for the first time in 4years!!
so i was happy to see them again.

we went to a monjya-yaki restaurant.
monjya- yaki is one of japanese foods.
it looks like vomit, but yummy!!!!lol




















they stayed at Tokyo ryokan.
it seems new, and clean....and so japanese...!!











i thought its good place in tokyo....

my friend havent slept on Futon, and she couldnt sleep well there thougt....
so, if you dont care about sleeping on Futon, and come to tokyo,
you should stay there.
i think...

anyway i had a good time with them.

maybe i should go to Sweden next time!!

long time no diary....again...!!

omg!!
i haven't wrote my blog so ling time...

i had a birthday party for my girl last week...
we didnt say anything about this party to her and just asked her to meet together.
and asked the staff of the restaurant to serve us a birthday parfait without saying her about it.
of course we got a present for her too!

she surprised that we did!!!!
yes! we did it!!lol
and i felt happy then!
i love you guys...!

yoga

i go to a gym lately. every weekend!!!
it's my fun time!
i run, ride a bicycle, do yoga and take ballet lesson there.
i am there all day long!!
actually i wanna go on weekday too, but i cant...
mmm....
and i am not busy now....so i really go back home and go to the gym!!
but i cant!! i cant.....ahh....
aaah

anyway i gatta go back to work again..

see ya

i cant speak english anymore...

long time no speak english.
and now, i cant speak anymore.

i went to a bar lastnight and i spoke with a guy who sat next to me.
he cant speak japanese well, so we spoke english,,,,but,,,,
i couldn't say "i watched the movie too!" when we talked about a movie.
i forgot many words and how to pronounce some words.

i can write english a little like this diary though....
mmmm.......
i am sad.....

as a worker...

oops...i did it again!!lol

....lond time no diary
cause i havent been online lately and i just focused upon my work.
i wanted to do my best and wanna grow up.. but actually i couldnt do it.
i was just by way of doing my best. i cut corners.
i thought i did well at first, but when the deadline, i did mistake...

naturally, my boss and senior told me off.
they blamed me.
and i really understood what they said.

there were any trains already when we finished our work, so my boss took me home in his car and we talked long time in there.

my boss asked me "do u know why somebody is anybody?"
"mm...i dont know"

"they already know they re fool. so they do their best than any other. thats why. if you never know what you re, you cant be a great. and dont think you re great."

and he asked me again...
"why you work? For what?"
"for my sake" i answerd him.
"thats a big mistake"
"oh why?"
"we work for others" he said.
"we work so that they can be happy. dont u think?
its the most happpiest thing that doing for others. it's not just when you work. also make love, be with your friends and family.....
u know...we live for others."
when i heard that, i really thought so.

i sometimes forget that, but i really wanna remember it everyday.
and i wanna make all the people around me happy. ill try it.

friendsship

i wanna talk about a guy who was with me today.
u know we went to the movie together.

i've met many ppl until now.
and today i thought i was lucky person cuz i could see him.
i've known about him before, but we hadnt met so many times.

i've thought he was smart when we first met. and Again i thought so today.
all his talking was good. and i really respected him.
we talked about work, life and friendship.
i really understood and agreed with him.
and i really hope he gonna be my good friend and we can keep contact with each other.

today was nice day!

American Gangster

today i went to see a movie with my friend.
we watched "American Gangster".
i've not saw any reviews and digests(?) before, so i sometimes couldnt understand how it was going cuz there were so many characters...and havent known Common and T.I. appeard.lol
i like Common, and i thought "wow. who is the guy likes Common!? he's cool!" when i saw the movie.lol
and i finally knew he was common when it showed the credit.
anyway this movie was quite good. hummm.

i wanna see "My Blueberry Nights" next time!

cant sleep

well.....
i was happy to get some messages from my friends lasttime.
i'm lucky girl. amn't i!?lol
thanks all my guys.

anyway, i cant sleep now. cuz i don't wanna be late for work today.
actually we re so hard at work lately, n cant go home everyday.
i stayed up all nite n do my thing without sleep.
i came home by the first train yesterday n did workout im my place.
after it i took shower.
so far, i ve been okay, but i shouldnt have gone to my bed after it!!!
(u know...i shouldnt have done workout too!!lol)
when i woke up, it was 2:30pm!!
"omg!!!"
i really couldn't believe it.
my boss called me so many times. his call wake me up.
"hi....i wake up right now...i'm really sorry... ill hurry."
i said it to him and went to work without eating.

so, i dont wanna sleep today. i came home in this morning though.
but i feel sleepy now....i wanna sleep....

couldn't stop crying today...

i've been not good lately.
i knew there re so many people and there are varying opinions and character in the world!
sometimes we cant understand and hurt each other..

there is a senior in my work place and who works hard everyday..she is afraid that she gonna lose her job so she cant take off every time.

oneday my boss wanted me to design for a booklet but actually it was her work before.
u know it was my first work by myself. so i got nervous and also was excited at it.
and as i guessed she seemed not good too.
she doesn't wanna me to do it, so she let me be her assistant.
and she is always sarcastic. and i got mad at her.....but i know she is Senior, so i cant say anything to her and just have to follow her.
my boss told me"even if she said she wanna do it by herself, u should do it too. work by yourself. i wanna you to grow up. so do your best. ok? i know you can do it. dont fear."
but i dont think i cant do it, cuz she is here.
i dont wanna fight with her, so i dont say anything to her, but she tells me someting and makes me sad everyday. i know she envies me though she has more experience on the job than i.
i really know she is upset.
she is not strong person i know...so i should stand her telling me sarcasm now.
hope my boss knows about it.
i dont mean to slack working....

life goes on

no matter my difficulties, everybody knows i will be fine soon.
time is the best medicine.
i know it when i am ok.
but 2 or 3 weeks before, i forgot about it.
and now, i already be okay.
i have another problem though...lol

if i am always be ok, and have never passed through difficulties,
i cant understand how my friends, family feel, i cant be kind to another person.
so i have to feel sad sometimes! right?lol

just go ahead

i really think that i should go ahead and dont look behid.
maybe its a right way that i chose.
so, believe myself and forget about bad things.

bye bee

Today's a new day i'll start again...

AHHH...

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO...
NO, ACTUALLY I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO.
BUT I CANT DO IT.
I CANT CONTROL MYSELF.